Angela Natividad's Live & Uncensored!

22 November 2011

Yesterday I cried because my pants didn't fit.

Please don't ask me where I found this. But isn't it amazing?

The older I get, the more stereotypically psychotic I become during my period. I didn't used to be this way. I used to be relatively normal and to pride myself on that anomalous sense of control. But last night, feeling that familiar pressure rise up in the general location of my ovaries, I was inconsolable, dragging my feet and slamming into walls and falling onto my bed in abject despair.

I also ate all the candies.

This is a trend that worries me. Every time it happens, I can't help but wonder if it's time doing its work, or if I'm behaving this way because of what TV taught me to do.* It is hard to know. I wish I had a team of scientists.


*I also wondered this the first time I got drunk. 


Ben Kunz said...

It's funny how much of our supposed intelligence is tied to bodily hormones. But imagine if our heads were disconnected from bodies, floating in a computer bank somewhere. No vibrations from hands, fingers, knees and toes. What fun would that be?

Of course, men would free up 98% of their mental capacity by not thinking about sex. This is why the future robot overloads will have no problem conquering us.

Angela Natividad said...

Did you ever watch Ghost in the Shell 2? It's an entire thesis about man's fascination with reproducing his own image, with dolls and later with robots. The strange thing is, the efficiency of machines seems to late evolve into associations of purity and innocence.

There's this weird tension in the movie where souls are imprinted onto machines because we like them better that way, but we are actually making them less efficient -- seizing their innocence and putting them in a position of violation.

I quite like this quote:

"We weep for the blood of a bird, but not for the blood of a fish. Blessed are those with a voice. If the dolls also had voices, I bet they would have screamed, 'I didn't want to become human.'"

Ben, what if the tragedy is that we do end up making things greater and more efficient than we are -- and then finish by destroying them all over again, just because we compulsively want to?

I think I'm about to have another jag. O_O